Why...

...is it that I always think that I need to be on some type of program? Is it my need to be organized or a fault that I am secretly unorganized and know that I will fail if not on a schedule? I don't know. But I am waiting for my new program to come in the mail and I have no motivation to do anything else. I have my mind set on this new program and nothing else seems like it will be as good. I feel like I cannot do anything else because then I will just have to quit that to start this new program and I HATE quitting anything.

Seems weird to me to need to have this much control, maybe because I feel like my life is out of my control a lot of the times...I do not know.

I do know however that any exercising I do is going to be beneficial, so I should just suck it up, stop waiting anxiously and just exercise it out. Ugghhh sometimes I hate the way I process things in my head.